randomness :D

Actually this issue have been in my heart for a long long time.
I was wondering if I should share it out but I think I wont feel good if I dont.
It was just something random so if you feel that I'm talking about you then that's your PERCEPTION.

I wonder how long it takes for a person to show his true colours.
I mean like for a moment someone could be an angel but the next moment, a devil.
I admit I'm like that at times but thats ME.
And I think the whole knows that I've got a bad temper but I'm trying to compress it. That's what make me an angel at times and devil some other times.
But I'm an angel MOST of the time :D

Anyway back to the point, how long it takes for one to show its true colours?
One day? One month? Or One semester?
And true colours can be so much different from the personality you TRIED to portray.
Being an angel all the time but with a devil's heart?
Which is more dangerous?
Me or you?!

Sometimes it is just so difficult to be well-liked by every single one in the world.
But know what?
Just be loved by those whom you loved is enough
It can be a super happy thing by just hanging around with those who accept you the way you are as compared to those people who you need to hide your real personality from..
Isn't tired to keep hiding to truth from people you mix with EVERYDAY?!

But I've recently found out that I'm not only the one suffering
Im not only the one paining inside...

DBSK...
Always keep the faith..
Every time when I turn on my comp and look for their news
I'll always feel the pain in my heart.

Yeah. I have just got obsess with them about two months ago.
And till now, every time I see them perform, I'll be so overwhelmed by their TALENT
And it is really hard to find TALENT in bands nowadays especially in Asia...
Even such talented people do face hardship in their life and I hope that they would be able to overcome this problem with each other supporting each other...

CHOIKANG CHANGMIN

XIAH JUNSU

MICKY YOOCHUN

YOUNGWOONG JAEJOONG

U-KNOW YUNHO

Micky Yoochun said this in their The Secret Code Concert in Tokyo Dome:

“Yunho, Changmin, Jaejoong, Junsu and Yoochun. We're the ONE, eternally!!!”

Every time I see this part of the video I feel so …

Imagine outsiders like me could feel the pain.. what about DBSK themselves?

Seriously, how do they feel if they were to look back their past performances and see this part?

I hope that whatever happens people would not judge them in a negative way

But use your heart and feel their hard work and effort for the past five years.

Look at how much they've grown and how much they have suffered to climb to where they are now.

So please guys, don't take away what is supposed to belong to them.

And give them every single thing they deserve...

They deserved nothing of what they're going through now.

DBSK... Always Keep The Faith... Hope To The End...

Proud by DBSK (L)

[Jae Joong]

Ashibaya ni toori sugiteku

Dore dake no kisetsu

Mou sugitan darou

[Yunho]

Minareta keshiki wo aruite

Tooi kioku kara

Hitori nukedasenai mama

[Chang Min]

Ikiba wo ushinai souna

Sonna toki kimi to deatta..

[Jae Joong]

Kono machi de

Meguriatta

Ima mo wasurenai yo

Ano hi kara..

[Xiah]

Takusan no

Kanashimi toka

Kakaeta fuan subete wo

Kimi no nukumori de

Omoide ni kaeta..

Proud of your love..

[Jae Joong]

Hirotta futatsu no kaigara

Mou ichido kimi ni

Aeta youna kiseki

[Yoo Chun]

Kimi ga soba ni itekuretara Whoa~

Kokoro no oku made

Yasashii kimochi ni nareru

[Chang Min]

Hageshii ame ga futtemo

Tsuyoi kaze ga fuku naka demo Whoa~

[Jae Joong]

Kono ai wo

Mamori nukeru

Kimi to naraba kitto

Koerareru.. (Oh~)

[Xiah]

Sou hajimete (Whoa..)

Omoeta kana

Kono te wo hanasanai youni

Zutto taisetsu ni

Toki wo mitsumeyou.. Whoa~

[Jae Joong]

Kono machi de

Meguriatta

Ima mo wasurenai yo

Ano hi kara..

[Xiah]

Ikiru koto

Shinjiru koto

Yorokobi e to kae nagara

Itsumade futari

Tomo ni arukou..

Proud of your love..

[Yoochun]

Proud of your love..

[Yunho]

Proud of your love..

[Jae Joong]

Proud of your love..

[Chang Min]

Proud of your love..

[Xiah]

Proud of your love..

TRANSLATION

Passing by at a quick pace

I wonder how much of a season had already gone?

Walking through the scenery I’ve become familiar with

Without being able to slip away

From these distant memories alone

It's like I completely lost my destination

That was the time when I met you

We met by chance along this road

Even now I can’t forget, ever since that day

Much of the sorrow and anxiety I held

Everything had been changed

Through the warmth of your memories

Proud of your love

Finding two shells

Is just like a miracle..

Meeting you once more

If you're here beside me

Even the depths of my heart

Would be comfortable with this gentle feeling

Even if violent rain falls down

And strong winds blow about

I'll go out to protect this love'

If we're together we can surely overcome all

Could I have thought like that at first?

So I don’t let go of this hand

I'll always gaze carefully at time

We met by chance along this road

Even now I can’t forget, ever since that day

Things that live on, things that I believe in

While changing towards happiness,

We’d both walk along together

Proud of your love

Proud of your love..

Proud of your love..

Proud of your love..

Proud of your love..

Proud of your love..

love those who love me :D

hai...
been so long since i've blogged.
for those who have been worrying about me.
thanks but no thanks. :D
i know you guys love me and i appreciated it.
but im ZHENYI
so dun worry... i've been through so many things and i can also get over this.

and for those who are also suffering,
persevere and you'll be stronger after everything's over.
thats what ive been doing for the past 18 years :D
being ALONE is not a bad thing,
but its just not a good feeling..
however no one would get whatever they want all the time so lets just accept whatever is given

for those who have people around you ALL the time
its time to cherish them!!
im saying this from past experience
treat them truthfully and they'll do the same to you...
dun always jump to conclusion without thinking twice...

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sorry friends... so long nv post
well i dunno what to name this post cause 2 things had happen this week..
first my favourite phone dropped into the toilet bowl...
second i got a new phone and its samsung peston!
now my clique is so samsung-fied!!!

FRIEND?!

know something?
im utterly disappointed in you guys...

hahah! you think you guys have passed the age then can fool ard?
hah!
you have change super TTM till i dun understand you!
i dunno you..
if you realised you guys have been very surface with me
so i too will too treat the same way as you did...


i mean you dun even take me serious whenever i talked to you...
so from now on i shant say anything..
THANKS for making me feel like a fool...

THANKS MY FRIEND!!!

A letter to A

Im not gonna say who A stands for cause its meant to be secret but hose who knows about both of us would know... she herself would know im implying to her....

its been 3 years since the days we were happening... Still remember you told me you broke up with her because of me... I mean im not thinking too much right? cause if a person were to say that to anyone, it means she/ he likes that person... Plus you did things that even a girlfriend wont do. Accompanying me to training during holidays was the happiest times i had. knowing that you were looking at me made me wanna work even harder.

It made me happy when you said you like the way i played basketball. it made me feel so much better with you looking at me... but it made me sad when you're emo... felt even worst when you told me age is the only barrier between us... you are only 3 years older than me... perhaps it is because you're OLDER. but i've always thought age wont be the problem between us... the only problem was the love you had for me...

i always thought that time would show you that i am mature enough to take this relationship but... it only shows that we cant be together... to let you know how much i love just wasnt my forte. the hints i dropped werent obvious enough. but till now, although time will slowly make us forget about each other you're still the only one in my heart and im sure you know that... i thought time would gradually make me forget about your existence... but 3 years later you contacted me again. the hope of bith of us to get together grew stronger... so much stronger that i could get the courage to say i love you.

But the thing is you have moved on... but thanks for bringing me happiness for the past few months of contacting me. you wont know how happy was i to wait and receive your texts... i guess its time for me to move on too... its difficult but life isnt easy in the first place...

I often wondered if i werent in my hostel at that time would you be attached to me... if i were to work harder to become a better person would you fall in love with me again... but its no use talking abt it now cause you've got a happy relationship and no longer feel that much for me...

But i still wanna tel you I LOVE YOU A... and i hope that you'll regain your courage that you used to lack in. Dun hurt yourself when you're emo cause that will hurt me too... forget about me but dun for get about those happy times you have had to keep you strong.. i'll learn to let go cause this is the one and only way to show my love for you...

who's the hottest?!

wanqiu says that she's a HOTBABE!
but i think her house no mirror...
but wendy say her house very hot
so ZHENYI AND WANQIU CLAIMS THAT THE REASON IS THEY'RE HERE...
but the hottest is hotbabeCHEN!
know who is she?
the one on the right !
hahahaha!

ZHENYI JUST GOT HER NEW HAIRCUT!
and she love it to the core...

(L)